Alone

 

 

Alone

 

My hopes and dreams fly away,

Whatever I do, I can't make them stay.

They slipped through my cold, hard hands,

Slipping through like ungrabbable sands.

 

All my big hopes drained through first,

After that, I felt cursed.

My dreams were the second to go,

I never felt so down and low.

 

Now I sit here with a pen,

Feeling hurt once again.

Tears fall down my sad face,

The pain I fought, I can't erase.

 

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(A poem I wrote around November 9, 2006. I was 14)

No Satisfying You

No Satisfying You

Wandering around my room
Wondering what you're going to do
There are always surprises
And I haven't got a clue

I give you one thing
But then you want more
You are never satisfied
And my heart is sore

I finally think that you're good
But then you turn it around
My happy climb to the top
Has just fallen to the ground

You are persistant
I can't get away
Whenever you plead and beg
I always stay

I can't go to friends
I know there's nothing they can do
I just have to walk away
And get over you

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(Written on November 25, 2008. When I was 16)

Without You

Without You

My heart burns
From all the stress
I can not think
In this big mess

What you did to me
Really wasn't fair
You treated me poorly
You didn't even care

When you left
I began to smile
First time I was happy
In a very long while

Time without you
Has really been swell
I never knew life
Could go so well

The love you gave me
Was always fake
That stupid love
You made me take

You call yourself a father?
I'm glad you walked out
I thought you were cruel
You removed all doubt

I'm happy in this new life
Content and excited too
I'm glad you're gone
Life's great without you

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(A poem I wrote on September 7, 2008. I was 16)